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I had a really long day yesterday, with two jobs (Eurajoki and SK) and all. And today felt really long too. I’m doing a lot of shoots at Kankaanpää now, because my boss is still on sick leave. Three shoots today. Tomorrow I promised to do a shooting gig for SK after Kankaanpää. The gig is at Kankaanpää and the writer is a friend so it should be fun. I just hope it all goes well and doesn’t take the whole night because I’ve got a shoot next morning. I’m so waiting for Sunday!

I can’t believe how full of work my calendar is. I suck at saying no. Mostly it’s because I’m interested in doing all those things but I should still sometimes try saying no.. Part of the reason for not being able to say no is probably the fact that it wasn’t so long ago when all the work I could find was cleaning gigs.. now that I’m being offered photography related jobs or gigs from different directions I still find it very hard to say no even though I’ve already got my hands full of the good stuff. It’s so strange how everything happens at the same time. First I got absolutely nothing at all and than all of a sudden I have more jobs than I can handle. Weird world.

Next week I have only one free day and that’s Sunday. I was stupid enough to promise to teach another course (a short one) at Eurajoki. It eats up some of my free Mondays and that sucks.. But those are short days and it’s good experience and I like teaching and blaablaablaa.. I’m good at explaining things to myself when I fail to say no :D

Wow, that was a lot of text. Too much me thinks. Time to go to bed and get some rest. Two more days to go..

Since I can’t upload my newest shots yet I took a trip down the memory lane and looked up what I shot this time a year ago (and didn’t upload anywhere). The rainbow shot was taken on the May 19th from our kitchen window. I love rainbows :) The ones of Miikka were taken on 21st. We were tearing down the old wallpapers from this room back than. And the series of snapshots in the simpleviewer plugin were taken at Kukkolankoski on May 26th 2007. It’s close to Tornio. We spent a nice afternoon there with our school friends. Still feels rather strange to think that school is over.

I’m not feeling too well right now. I hope I’m not getting a stomach flu or something. I almost feel like puking right now. I have another job interview tomorrow. It’s the second time they want to talk to me. I thought that they had already picked someone since originally they were supposed to do it a week or two ago. Now it turns out they still haven’t decided. I’m not so sure anymore if I really want to go there. Not after last Friday and SK.. Still if I only get a single gig every now and than from SK it will make things really hard financially. There’s so many sides to take into consideration here that thinking about it all makes my head ache. I almost wish she didn’t call me for a second interview.. If she didn’t I wouldn’t have to think about this. Ignorance sure is a bliss!

Still I’m sure it would be a nice place to work at too. The people were nice.. it’s just that I’m not too keen on sitting in a bus two hours a day. And work on all Saturdays. And the thought of having to say no to every freelance shooting gigs SK might give to me feels horrible. Otherwise the job would be great, but I really do want to be a photographer, and now that I’ve had a taste of the real thing I really don’t want to do anything else.. The other job would be photoshopping. But a steady income has it’s sides too. Angst angst! I’m going to bed now. That action at least has only good consequenses :D

.. a bad feeling about this! I’m still at school. All the assignments are done, but we don’t know yet if we’ve passed or not. I don’t think I did too well on some of the assignments. I really hope that I didn’t fail too badly. I’ve had a bad day today, everything’s been sort of gray in my head, even though the weather was just fine. I usually have this positive spark in me when I shoot an assignment but today I couldn’t find it, and it shows in my shots. That makes me sad, and worried. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day.